In the year 2525....
Countdown ladies and gents.
My odd behaviors have gone ten fold this year. I am cleaning shit as if I’m never going to see it again.
I sit and I think about people who live for each day and I don’t get it. Why live today when you can worry about tomorrow? Always been this way. It’s not sad, just how I am but I often wonder why more aren’t of my mindset. It doesn't bother me, it makes me blink.
I read a post on a message board I frequent and this girl is having self image issues. Ones that hit home so hard I looked for the baseball that just smacked me in the stomach. I wanted to cry for her.
You dress up, you play pretty but nothing except self can ever fix that bullshit.
So I look at others and wonder what their shitty little hidden secrets are. What crosses are they bearing and not telling? I contemplate strangers in that regard instead of enjoying myself, and yet it’s what I prefer to be doing. Speculation lends so very much to this daydreamer.
I have been trying to think of stories for vacation and am having a bit of a hard time saying anything positive but I am happy to be going on a trip (mostly). Nothing like a vacation to turn me into more of a lunatic. I don’t want to work. That’s all I really consider of vacation. Given the strict confinements of my travel willingness, I’m not sure where we’d go that we already haven’t. People often tell me it must suck living in my shell, but at least it feels safe. Giving the extra leap to prove it’s ok outside the shell is ludicrous me, because I’m not daft – I know there is a great goodness out there for me to grab. I will get it when I want it. Forcing does nothing. If I have learned anything from being a nut talking to other nuts… it’s that change happens when it’s the right time, I would guess that goes for anything and anyone.
Because I adore old videos and songs…… too often we forget these gems. You’re welcome. (also posted because the daily news is making me eyeball prozac. Please people, stop this shit or no one will be left to finish his chorus)
-DM
My odd behaviors have gone ten fold this year. I am cleaning shit as if I’m never going to see it again.
I sit and I think about people who live for each day and I don’t get it. Why live today when you can worry about tomorrow? Always been this way. It’s not sad, just how I am but I often wonder why more aren’t of my mindset. It doesn't bother me, it makes me blink.
I read a post on a message board I frequent and this girl is having self image issues. Ones that hit home so hard I looked for the baseball that just smacked me in the stomach. I wanted to cry for her.
You dress up, you play pretty but nothing except self can ever fix that bullshit.
So I look at others and wonder what their shitty little hidden secrets are. What crosses are they bearing and not telling? I contemplate strangers in that regard instead of enjoying myself, and yet it’s what I prefer to be doing. Speculation lends so very much to this daydreamer.
I have been trying to think of stories for vacation and am having a bit of a hard time saying anything positive but I am happy to be going on a trip (mostly). Nothing like a vacation to turn me into more of a lunatic. I don’t want to work. That’s all I really consider of vacation. Given the strict confinements of my travel willingness, I’m not sure where we’d go that we already haven’t. People often tell me it must suck living in my shell, but at least it feels safe. Giving the extra leap to prove it’s ok outside the shell is ludicrous me, because I’m not daft – I know there is a great goodness out there for me to grab. I will get it when I want it. Forcing does nothing. If I have learned anything from being a nut talking to other nuts… it’s that change happens when it’s the right time, I would guess that goes for anything and anyone.
Because I adore old videos and songs…… too often we forget these gems. You’re welcome. (also posted because the daily news is making me eyeball prozac. Please people, stop this shit or no one will be left to finish his chorus)
-DM
posted by DMorgan's Zoo at
5:41 PM
2 Comments:
I hope you get some much needed relaxation on your vacation. I too have had the suckiest of years. I could go into more detail if you'd like, but suffice to say, my tribulations may make you feel better. When I look at other people, I just figure they have their own shit as well. There really isn't such a thing as "normal."
You know I would love to hear your woes, but much more in private unless it's your bag to share with anyone.
I'm sorry you've had a hard roll this year, I wish I could help, but I am always an ear with a sarcastic upturn to any issue.
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